90% OF THIS GAME IS HALF MENTAL
hard to believe this experience has already turned the corner and is pulling for home.
today is a strange day. i don’t have the energy to do anything.
i spent a good deal of time in the gym working on these stability exercises. part of which is that INDIAN BASIC SKETCH video. there are not a whole lot of places you can go with extending one leg if you don’t have better than average flexibility. (one of the things i’ve felt hanging over me my whole life – this secret desire to be able execute a penchee; as i approach my 34th birthday, i somehow sense that prospect receding ever farther.). there are all kinds of little things happening in a few simple shapes like those in the video - there’s tempo and accuracy and, ah, our old friend The Breath. i’ve chosen to use this time to work on an enormous amount of muscular issues, and so it’s been very easy to lose track of the nervous system and the breath. what’s funny is that in putting together phrasings and sequences, i’ve become aware of rhythm as a binding force. i naturally have a hard time working/ moving in consistent tempos. i can sort of “fake it” and make intelligent choices that utilize my facility with speed and acceleration when building a role. one of the things i’ve tried to do out here is to work in steady tempos in physical exercises and in meditation.
